Leaving to come home to myself

   I must say this is a bit intimidating, writing a blog so others can see & maybe relate, to the incessant ramblings of a mad woman. I just recently made a life changing decision to leave someone, somewhere, so I could come home to my self. Often, more times then not, I have put my self on the back burner or completely out of the picture. Not for my children, not for a career, not for education, but for a relationship with someone else. For anyone other than my self. I never learned how to be in a relationship with me. It is the hardest relationship I have ever had to be in and work on.So I did this in October of 2016. I loaded my 3 cats and what I owned into my suv and headed across country from Los Angeles to Virginia. Now..this wasn't the first time..I actually was born in Virginia. I met someone, and after a year, decided to load up and drive across to California to live with him. That was in 2009. In 2016, things were getting salty and I was given an ultimatum. So I  headed back across country to Virginia and thought I would be at peace.